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Saturday, January 7, 2012
27 jan 2012 two time 2 place
hi there , today i went to the selaleh cafe with cihan , he showed me some examples of the book covers
that he has done last year .
i'm behind the big table in the hall room now , listening to the native american musics ... after some years !!
you know what i feel so strange , i grew with these musics last years , when i listen to them i just remember my
special moments in my room ,
when i listen to the wolf sounds , the rain sound , repeating of a sentence over and over again , i just remember
when i was listening to this song , i was walking in my room , i look at from window now and in my mind i look at my window some years ago , i walk here and remember the exact moments of the stuffs in my room like 3 years ago or 4 years maybe .
it's strange but it feels gooood , xD it's like time traveling , being in 2 times and 2 places !
wow it's so special moment !!
you would never understand it if you don't experience it :)
that he has done last year .
i'm behind the big table in the hall room now , listening to the native american musics ... after some years !!
you know what i feel so strange , i grew with these musics last years , when i listen to them i just remember my
special moments in my room ,
when i listen to the wolf sounds , the rain sound , repeating of a sentence over and over again , i just remember
when i was listening to this song , i was walking in my room , i look at from window now and in my mind i look at my window some years ago , i walk here and remember the exact moments of the stuffs in my room like 3 years ago or 4 years maybe .
it's strange but it feels gooood , xD it's like time traveling , being in 2 times and 2 places !
wow it's so special moment !!
you would never understand it if you don't experience it :)
Sunday, January 1, 2012
today is the first day of 2012 ... or it's actually 12:12 AM lol means 2/jan/2012
it's my first post since ive got to turkey , i wanna write after this , i'll read and write . because i love this :)
tomorrow i have advanced painting with a nude woman model , and illustration class as well .
well don't have much to say , gonna link my friends blog , and get a shower before sleep :)
listening to Katie Melua :)
cyas one day ;)
it's my first post since ive got to turkey , i wanna write after this , i'll read and write . because i love this :)
tomorrow i have advanced painting with a nude woman model , and illustration class as well .
well don't have much to say , gonna link my friends blog , and get a shower before sleep :)
listening to Katie Melua :)
cyas one day ;)
Sunday, September 4, 2011
for the 2000 dollars
1:41 AM i have to get up at 5 o clock to go to the bank , i need to get 2000 dollar from the bank .
but i cant sleep ...
i think alot again heh . this mind never stop this bullshit thoughts :)
hmm i'm not going to lie to myself . i've been hurt .
i have a madness in me now , i see the girls like a machine sex after what have happened to me ,
i love my feeling for love, i get it that love is not real , it's just a normal imagination .
i was thinking if i had to choose one of the 2 buttons : 1) explode the half of the world(specially sweden)
2)forget ur past and start new life ..
i would choose first bomb button .
and press it with a smile . not even angrily . and this is the worst part .
because i'm not feeling anger much , i'm calm . and i think about this thing like a normal thought .
if i was angry the feeling would have passed by some days , but when i'm not angry i say it normally
that i really like what Hitler have done to this people . yea i do not like wars , but
atm i dont care how many people would die with some explosions or what else .
my heart is black and closed to love . i do not feel the way i did before . i was discovering a
new life of loving and friendship . but u just stopped it from happening to me :)
u see i still smile .
its okay that u didnt love me , but even ignore me as a trash friend , block all the ways i could contact u (ofc
i can contact u when ever i want still but i would never do that) .
i know u thought its the best way to forget me and force me to forget u . but it can't just happen :)
i can't delete u from my files , because i lived for u all these years . we will live apart but
u can't deny that u made a mistake to declare our friendship .
u've turned me to a selfish person who doesn't care about anyone anymore .
u can't even imagine who i am now .
when i see love movies i just see it as a comedy and lies . i see girls as a sex machine only .
no one is worth to be loved . in fact there is no such a word as "love" in my mind dictionary anymore.
i probably will hurt too many people in future because of the way i think now :) but i just dont care .
the lives itself isn't important for me not the way it was before ...
i'm going to study in turkey 4 days and be a designer at future . but who knows what else i would be ;)
an advice for u that want to know me...
never believe me after this , i'm full of lies and tricks , i hack , i steal , i create . i destroy . and i just do what i want because i dont care about ANY of u :)
i feel like some day u will try to contact me , or maybe u still check me or ask bout me from others . but i can say it's too late . damage is so high , it can't get fixed :) the lovely little kid who was the man of love ....
is dead . i couldnt even kill a fly because i loved to watch them , but i changed alot .
i remember the dead body of my friend in my arms which got killed in army . i remember the misery of human , the lies , the evilness . the hunger for blood .
everything that we trained about being good was just lies .
yea u wonder i guess that i never told u about the death of my friend .
because it's one of the worse feelings u would ever had by hearing it . and i couldnt let it happen .
u probably will forget me even sooner that i would imagined . what ever :) after all you are a europian ,
u guys get a girl friend or boyfriend from 5 year old and change it every new year event haha .
i'm mid eastern and a turk , while my fathers were making poems and musics . ur ancients were living in cages as wild animals .
i'm not a psycho to turn to a serial killer no .. :)
sometimes i wanna wish to get u back , but just some seconds after i remember the ignoring ur friend . and i
get that u do not care about anyone like me :) u didnt mind what would happen to me or any of other friends .
yea you're growing mature .
they say try to love ..like u never been hurt before , but i think it's impossible , because the heart is what it is now . when it's dark there is no a way for light .
i probably will have GF laters but it's not the same love , it will be more like sex partners or fun partners :) not the love .
Devil is the first one that realized ... humans are not worth to bow down and be loved .
but i cant sleep ...
i think alot again heh . this mind never stop this bullshit thoughts :)
hmm i'm not going to lie to myself . i've been hurt .
i have a madness in me now , i see the girls like a machine sex after what have happened to me ,
i love my feeling for love, i get it that love is not real , it's just a normal imagination .
i was thinking if i had to choose one of the 2 buttons : 1) explode the half of the world(specially sweden)
2)forget ur past and start new life ..
i would choose first bomb button .
and press it with a smile . not even angrily . and this is the worst part .
because i'm not feeling anger much , i'm calm . and i think about this thing like a normal thought .
if i was angry the feeling would have passed by some days , but when i'm not angry i say it normally
that i really like what Hitler have done to this people . yea i do not like wars , but
atm i dont care how many people would die with some explosions or what else .
my heart is black and closed to love . i do not feel the way i did before . i was discovering a
new life of loving and friendship . but u just stopped it from happening to me :)
u see i still smile .
its okay that u didnt love me , but even ignore me as a trash friend , block all the ways i could contact u (ofc
i can contact u when ever i want still but i would never do that) .
i know u thought its the best way to forget me and force me to forget u . but it can't just happen :)
i can't delete u from my files , because i lived for u all these years . we will live apart but
u can't deny that u made a mistake to declare our friendship .
u've turned me to a selfish person who doesn't care about anyone anymore .
u can't even imagine who i am now .
when i see love movies i just see it as a comedy and lies . i see girls as a sex machine only .
no one is worth to be loved . in fact there is no such a word as "love" in my mind dictionary anymore.
i probably will hurt too many people in future because of the way i think now :) but i just dont care .
the lives itself isn't important for me not the way it was before ...
i'm going to study in turkey 4 days and be a designer at future . but who knows what else i would be ;)
an advice for u that want to know me...
never believe me after this , i'm full of lies and tricks , i hack , i steal , i create . i destroy . and i just do what i want because i dont care about ANY of u :)
i feel like some day u will try to contact me , or maybe u still check me or ask bout me from others . but i can say it's too late . damage is so high , it can't get fixed :) the lovely little kid who was the man of love ....
is dead . i couldnt even kill a fly because i loved to watch them , but i changed alot .
i remember the dead body of my friend in my arms which got killed in army . i remember the misery of human , the lies , the evilness . the hunger for blood .
everything that we trained about being good was just lies .
yea u wonder i guess that i never told u about the death of my friend .
because it's one of the worse feelings u would ever had by hearing it . and i couldnt let it happen .
u probably will forget me even sooner that i would imagined . what ever :) after all you are a europian ,
u guys get a girl friend or boyfriend from 5 year old and change it every new year event haha .
i'm mid eastern and a turk , while my fathers were making poems and musics . ur ancients were living in cages as wild animals .
i'm not a psycho to turn to a serial killer no .. :)
sometimes i wanna wish to get u back , but just some seconds after i remember the ignoring ur friend . and i
get that u do not care about anyone like me :) u didnt mind what would happen to me or any of other friends .
yea you're growing mature .
they say try to love ..like u never been hurt before , but i think it's impossible , because the heart is what it is now . when it's dark there is no a way for light .
i probably will have GF laters but it's not the same love , it will be more like sex partners or fun partners :) not the love .
Devil is the first one that realized ... humans are not worth to bow down and be loved .
Thursday, July 21, 2011
hey , it's 2:18 AM Friday . i'm not sleepy , listening to some songs .
i'm bored of everything . i don't know what i want atm . i feel like i dont need anything really .
i'm bored of games , movies . everything actually .
i drank some wine, yea i did , it's the only thing i really hated always , but i do it now heh .
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